10/23

Sometimes like right now I can't fall asleep, things just keep running thro my head. So manny thoughts it's like I can't control them. So I desided just to blog about a couple of them. Sometimes I just don't under stand my ed. It's like it's my only freind but people keep telling me it's going to kill me. I know anorexia is bad and I feel like somtimes it's just pulling me down. But it's allways there no matter what. I think that's what keeps me calm sometimes, no matter how bad other things get my anorexia will allways be there. Since me and my ex beat freind stopes talking, I think of anorexia as my reall best freind, and if I stay faithful to "her" then she won't leave me. Do you guys understand what in trying to say?  Some times I feel like I'm just blabbering on and on.......