Aug 23

So, I'm at the highest weight Iv ever been at
And I started purging agin.
Never thought I'd say this but thank god
School is stating soon
It will give me time to get my mind off food!
I will make a first day back at school post
In a few days but untell then
Stay strong,

Aug,3, 2014

Finally back home from the ranch
My muscles are so soar but I attchally
Had a pretty good time.
I got to practice my barrel raceing
And I got to see my favorite horse❤️
So all in all not abad weekend
My weight how ever from being in "recovery"
For so long in back up to 125.2
That number makes me Insain
I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
I am now fasting for the next 3 days
And I will keep you guys updated.
Stay strong,

Aug,1, 2014

I'm tired, I'm so tired I just want to sleep
Forever and never wake up.
But I guess that's not an option.
I'll set my alarm for 8, wake up and go
To the ranch like a good little girl.
Not because I want to but because I have no choice.
God, I hat family trips.
At least I get to ride the horses tho.
I'll probably post tomarrow?
Stay stong,  

Not sure what day it is~

Hey guys, it's been a wile since I last posted
And slit has happened since, my birthday passed,
Tons of drama at school, Iv gained  about 7 pounds
And I'm back on cigs.
Currently I am freaking out about this 7 pounds
Which means....... Three day fast!!
My doctors are no longer watching me do I can
Do it with complete confidence.
After the three days I will go back to my very
Restrictive diet.
I will post within three days to tell ya'll how I am doing

3/9/25

Oh sweet, sweet relapse.
We'll not exactly "sweet" but somthing about it is comferting
The fact that no matter what you do you have somthing to
Fall back on.
It sounds weird but somehow it's true,
It's just reashering in some way, even tho you know it's bad,
And a lot of people take it as defeat.
I know it's roung to feel this way but somehow it still
Feels right.
I don't know mabby I really am just nutts?  

I'm back!!!

Hey guys,
I'm back and this time I'm not leaving!
I miss blogging so much.
My life has been shit not being able to vent.
Not to menchen how much Iv missed all of ya'll.

5/14

So I desided to make a new blog for my New Years resolution
Well the real reason is that my mom found out about this blog
And she is not going to let me post on it anymore
Because she beloved it is bad for my anorexia.
But either way I am not going to be post on this blog anymore
I did start a new blog and you can follow me on there
Eleswherealice.blogspot.com

1/2/14

Hey guys,
Sorry I havnt blogged in a wile,
I miss you all so much!
I was in recovery for a wile
But so much has happend the past few weeks
Most if which I'm still trying to forget.
But anyway I decided to say fuck it
And do what makes me happy.
And as you probably know what makes me happy
Is writing.
So it's back to posting at least once a week.
It will be a nice start to the new year.... I hope <3