9/29/13

I am soooo tired,

I had a bowling tournament that  lasted ALL day.

I placed 4th which isn't bad but its still

not as good as i wanted to do.  

It was fun tho, and i got to hang out with this

guy i haven't seen in a long time.

He made a big deal about how skinny i was. 

I'm not sure how to feel about that. 

I'm happy i guess but i still don't feel 

like i'm skinny. Does that make since?

9/27/13

Welp, that's me if you guys were wondering what  i look like.
My braces hut soooooo bad, and i
already broke 3 brackets.
I'v gained 2 pounds and i feel like a fat whale!
Thinking about going on another fast?

Starve on!

9/24/13

Happy Autumn Equinox!!!

I'm making apple cider to celebrate. 

I should probably mention i have never made cider before.

And i have no idea what the hell i'm doing! 

If all else fails, it will at least turn out interesting right? 

Well i hope so. It takes 3 hours to cook so im going to 

be up at least untell midnight.....probably more like 2.

I get out early from school tomorrow so i can get my braces

put on and i'm totally freaking the fuck out!! 

Wish me luck? 

Starve on! 

9/23/13

Well, the guy in my art class sucks. I messaged him on Facebook

asking him what  time he wanted to meet up but he 

never replied. ;-;  

But on the  bright side this really cute senor i'v been 

talking to for the last few weeks 

asked me out!!! 

Long story short  we stayed up 

all night on Skype talking  c; 

Iv been with allot of guys and girls but 

i don't think i believe in true "love"

I know that its kind of weird but i don't think two people 

can/should stay together forever.

This is probably just because everyone 

i'v ever had any feeling for in my life 

left. I just don't understand how two people can stay 

together for the rest of there life's.

Maybe i'm just crazy, what do you guys think?

9/22/13

Hey guys,
So i  changed the  name of  my blog to  Beauty  Is In The Bones.
What do ya'll think?
I just got back from a run, took a shower and now
i'm about to go to the store, and after that
i'm going to hang out with the  guy from my art class!!

Starve on!

9/21/13

Oh.my.god, guys i did it! 110.lbs  ^~^
I  am so fucking happy right now!!!!
Plus tomorrow i get to go chill with this really cute guy
from my art class. But the best thing is
that he only lives two streets down from me!!!

Starve on beautiful laddies!

9/19/13

Oh. My. God. I got my first follower and 2 comments thank you so much <3
I am so excited. I guess this means someone out there really is listening  to me
blabber on and on about my crazy life. Well not much
happened at school to day. I went in early  to get some homework done
and i was so exhausted by the end of the day. I still haven't written my
English paper that's due tomorrow so i'm kind off stressing about that.
Plus i am so scared to start that  new ED therapy. I'm scarred to give up the
only thing i really have control over, my weight. I really do want to be happy
and i want to be healthy but its scary as hell.

New Song

So i just wanted to know what you guys thought of my new song so far?

Your a fallen angle.

Just a bit unstable

But i guess that how you knew 

This earth is not for you.

So close your eyes,

And hold on tight,

Sooner or latter it will be alright 

But i guess that's what  they always say,

Just a little bit less then perfectly insane. 

9/18/13

   Well, iv been fasting for the last day and a half and i'm down to 111.8!!!!
I am so excited even tho the rest of my day didn't go so well. During lunch two of my friends
almost got into a fist fight. This didn't bother me untell the table across the court yard
started screaming "nerd fight" My friends may not be the most popular kids at school
but at least they aren't total dicks like thos guys.
    Sometimes i wonder if anyone's really reading this or if i'm just babbling on and on to nobody?

Starve on!

9/16/13

Sorry i haven't posted in a few days. I got sent to a treatment center......again .
I tried to OD on some sleeping pills and it didn't really turn out well. Long story short
i'm back home and doing better.  However when i was there they found out about me ED, now i have
to go to this really ex-stream therapy for it. Ill keep you up dated when i know more about it.

Starve on!

9/7/3

I gained 2 pounds in a day! God i hate myself right now, plus my ex-best friends ex-boyfriend started texting me. Apparently  he's still in love with her. She was my best friend since 4th grade she hates me now and i don't know what to do. God, someone tell me what  to do?

9/6/13

Today was allright I ended my fast this morning and i lost 5 pounds in 3days. I'll eat today and then ill start a 4 day fast. 

Starve on!

9/5/13

Oh my god. Today actually didn't suck as much as I expected! In 8th period this really cute guy was talking to me and he kissed me after class!! Plus he found out i was pro Ana and it didn't freak out or anything. He just said i was to skinny to be doing that. Even tho i don't believe him it was still supper sweet. No one else at my school knows i'm pro Ana. The last guy i liked found out and totally freaked and hasn't talked to me since. I'm so happy right now. I have so much energy and i think its from not eating. I'm going to go have a totally bad-ass workout.

Starve on! 

9/5/13

  Getting ready for school. God, i hate it. I wish I didn't have to go, but since  i missed so much last year at the hospital my mother is forcing me. Plus i  have a meeting with my guidance counselor this morning to talk about my credits which mean i have to go super early! Fuck i don't want to go, wish me luck?

Starve on!

9/4/13

Start weight- 117 

height- 5'7 

Goal- 100 

 This was the first day of my new fast so i decided why not start a blog? 

School was terrible but other than that my day was pretty good. I haven't eaten since 8 last night, i ran 3 miles and did 800 crunches. I feel Great!! I'm light, i'm empty, i'm free! Tomorrow i will go Ana ex-stream (still fasting) i will  wear a red shirt and my red beaded bracelet. I hope this will keep me strong. 

Starve on. <3